First Run of 2015, With Some Extra Wings

On December 30, 2014, my mom lost her battle with lung cancer.

On January 1, 2015, I ran the first miles of 2015 for her.

I hadn’t run since December 3rd. On that particular run, my breathing was heavy and my body ached. I took a break from running and workouts. My heart needed to be with her, not my running. I just didn’t have room for both.

On that first day of the new year, I wanted to run, my heart was ready. I felt sad, but also somehow light, lifted, and free…like I had some extra wings. I miss her terribly, but I’m relieved she is no longer burdened with pain and a broken body.

We did not live in the same state, but she got to see me run some races. She was not a runner, but she was my biggest supporter.

mother marathon support

My mother and my daughter cheering the first mile of my first marathon in matching pink coats.

marathon mother support

My mom and I freezing at the start of my first marathon, 2012.

marathon mother support

Before my first half marathon in 2011.

Philadelphia Marathon

She was with me at the Philly Marathon in 2013.

This next picture is from that New Year’s Day run a few days ago. I’m making the sign (albeit backwards) for “I love you,” as she was an educator for the heading impaired.

marathon mother support It’s going to be my new finish-line hand signal.

I love you, Mom.

8 thoughts on “First Run of 2015, With Some Extra Wings

  1. Wow, what a beautiful post!! You are so beautiful!! I am SO sorry to hear about the loss of your mother. I am just so sorry. I wish I could give you a big hug. I’m happy you ran for her on New Year’s day and I know she’ll be with you every single run and every single race for the rest of your life. Have an amazing day. XOXO

  2. Great post, Nancy! So sorry for your loss. However, like Kristin said in her comment, she will be with you on every run you take and I bet you’ll find that is when you feel the closest to her…doing what she knew you loved to do. Best wishes on lots of great runs in 2015 and lots of use of the new finish line “I love you” signs.

  3. Nancy, I had some difficulty reading through your lovely post the first time…due to tears. This tribute to your wonderful Mom and her constant support and love is heartbreaking, inspiring and uplifting. It’s a tribute to you, as well, because you have so much courage and perseverence. You two were a match made in heaven. You are absolutely on target when you say that she will always be with you. And what a perfect finish: “I love you Mom” in sign language. Beautifully expressed. As always, Jane was right: You should keep writing.

  4. What a wonderful tribute to your mother Nancy. You are now her angel on earth as she is an angel in heaven. Keep running and smiling for Jane.

  5. I’m so sorry for your loss. I just found your blog – I was researching compression socks – loved your post on the cheap ones. I’m going to try them out and see if they help me. I’ve subscribed to your blog now so I won’t miss anything! Stay strong; run on!

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